ismael luna

EXCERPTS FROM LEAVE ANYTHING

 

 

 

khalief,

 

 

        here,
                is the shadows of the sun

 

                cup in your hands

 

        this
        reason

 

 

 

******

 

 

 

i clip news from
        the shooting.

 

 


i fold the paper
like

 

 

 

i was taught to fold
            homework
            

 

 

 

            in catholic school.

 

 

*****

 

 

 

cactus silk
sheets

imagine you
waking me up

from a
nightmare

“look up”

 

(they’re smoking outside)

 

those cactus they
got fake
flowers

 

and
there are

too many

attics
          here

 

 

 

*****

 

 

 

say grief enough times 

that it loses

meaning

 

inside your 

mouth

becomes a
wad of
chewed up
                                                 
receipts


that you shape 

into frames

 

for           the

holidays

 

 

 

*****

 

 

 

ancestral knowledge
so

 

palatable

 

*pretends to be back home*

 

*writes about
             ‘mountains’*

 

*loves the coast
long distance*

 

 

 

*****

 

 

 

there is no artifice

here

: nothing

that i am

crafting,

 

 

 

validated and
adorned

that there is a

transition:           is a
                           lie.

 

 

(but i don’t need
                    those things

except when i
always
do)

 

 

 

*****

 

 

 

(to my white friend who is pretending she is not white)

 

 

 

 

 

 

having to teach you
i am put

to theorize
           love

 

destroy
          yourself

 

leave,
                      anything

 

 

 

*****

 

 

 

stuff money in trash bags
bless a   landfill,
nightly

the obscurity of
assault
Brassicas     overrun
the curtain and

taint a
blown up face.

with oiled
blessing,

 

my mother made me
a suit at 4 in
the morning
so that


when i was young i
could
meet
with a boy dressed
like columbus

ismael luna is transgender and queer and mixed and latinx and an immigrant (it's complicated). and incoherent. Their chapbook leave anything was the winner of The 2015 Best Prize. Follow them at @ay_me_cago.

Mark Cugini